finally

when God says no, it is useless and painful to fight for a yes.

i've told myself a thousand times that its over, but i never let go.
saying that i've moved on will be a lie. i kept on taking steps away only to find myself just where i moved. i know i have nothing to lose when i leave, niether do i have something when i stay..

God loves me so much no matter how i try to come back to my sin, He kept on making ways to keep me apart from it..
this time, it was my sweestest sin who left me.I know that i should be thankful that its over, but its as if its inevitable for me to feel sorrow.

I fear for alot of things.Although i know that there is nothing that i can do about it. on ly god can change the things that i fear. Only god can protect him from what i fear for him.


leaving is a choice, staying is a choice. And you can never really ask someone to stay or to leave. It is a choice they have to make for themselves...

=)

for every ending, there's a new beginning,,,

i want to begin ryt this time..

no more pretensions..no more lies...

all i have to do is to wait and hold on to God while waiting.

I have to be sure its you... I dont want to fail in this game anymore..

For this time, I've learned all the rules.

The most important is to wait and to be satisfied with God first.

then He'll secure the best.

Untill then, I'll be praying....

Until then I'll be waiting..

(??)

i do not know exactly what i feel...

Music Ministry Members...

i can still remember the time when i prayed to God for friends..
real friends...
that was 8 years ago...

since then i had few...


but none of them really meant more to me than
you guys... you are not just my bandmates... not just my ministry mates...
you're not just my friends...

You are all part of me.

You are attributes to the Kristin people know today...

I can't thank God enough for giving you guys to me....

I can't thank Him enough for allowing you guys enter the stage of my life...

You make my life extra good...

You make me a better person...while God makes me the best I can be.

I feel God's love for me through your presence...

I do not know for how long i can feel this way for you

But I know so long as we make God the center of our relationships,

things will work out just fine...

Guys, no matter how hard things are for us now, let us hold on to God.

And let us not let go of each other. Let us always look after one another.

This is so corny... hahah!!

Lord, thank you...for their lives, for their smiles, for their cries, for their existence..

Do not let go us of please... NO matter what!

^________^

hays! sa wakas!

nd p naman tapos ang lahat.

pero malapit nang maayos ang mga bagay bagay...

salamat po Lord!


^_^

hahaha! Taung mag paka EMO!

"someday"
(^_________^)

Someday you'll gonna realize
One day you'll see through my eyes
But then i wont even be there
Ill be happy somewhere
Even if i cant

I know
U dont really see my worth
You think your the last guy on earth
Well iv'e got news 4 u
I know im not that strong
But it wont take long
Wont take long



Coz someday, someones gonna love me
The way, i want you to need me
Someday,someones gonna take your place
One day ill forget about you
You'll see, i wont even miss you
Someday, someday

But now
I know you can tell
Im down,and im not doing well
But one day these tears
They will all run dry
I wont have to cry
Sweet goodbye

Im not a hero

i fail... most of the time.
i fall... almost every trial.
i feel weak... whenever i can't stand it.
i cry... all my down moments.


I want to cry now.

I cant cry.

Where can i cry?

I feel so burdened! So helpless!

I feel so weak! so hurt!

I feel supressed, left alone, so low.


Lord.. help me stand up.

I feel so tired.

please be my strength.

i don't know where to go anymore.

My mind is in mayhem!

Please, be with me!

para kay ate pipay....

Salmat....

para sa pakikinig...

para sa mga payo

para sa mga aral

para sa mga prayer...


ang hirap hirap ng pinasok ko...
sana makaya kong lumabas ng buo...
para maging isang karapatdapat at
walang bahid na alipin ni Kristo...
^_^

I Want to Stick With What I Said!!!!

I find it so hard to stand for what is right and for what should be done.

For every time i feel hurt, I really want to go back.
But going back does nothing good.
I need to stay where I am for so many reasons
yet i want to go back for just one reason.
When can i learn to thrash that?
How long will it take for me to finally heal?

BEEP

this new post if for you!

haha!! I never had the chance to say how much i appreciate your presence.

I never expected that you'll be my friend in the first place, it just happened. Now I have God to thank for your life, your works, your special talents and for the whole Kris andrew Mercado.

Let us stay close Him.

Stay close to Him.

Thanks beep.

God Bless your heart! ^_^

He's all I need

I want to live as if Jesus is the air I breathe,
as I He's the water I need to appease my thirst
as If He's the food I need to take to be unfamished.
as if He's the drug to ease my pain,
as if He's the handle I can always hold on to
as if He's the only love i need to feel blooming
as if He's the Only reason I wanted to live.