love the way you lie

im writing this dahil nahihirapan na ako.. i dont want to bother anyone anymore and the only follwer i have is kuya kris and i so hope that he wont bother to read this...


its too much for me to take.. i gave up everything i have for him..
i was willing to go to the other side and leave my world just to be with him but it was not enough for him.. i understand that god loves me so much that he only wanted to spare me from worse pains but how about you? what is your reason mark?
is it to spare me from pain too? is to avoid hurting me so bad? is to make me have a better shot at happines? well if it is so, then thank you very much for all of these.. i just hope you never even bothered to step into my life.. you could have saved yourself all the efforts..

i hoped you even cared to talk to me before you left.. even just to explain why.. kasi hanggang ngayon, hindi ko maintindihan...andun paren ako kung saan mo ako iniwan..and the worst part is mahal na mahal parin kita...

so i dont want to see your face, to hear your name, what and how you are doing, no chats, no texts, nothing... i just want to make myself believe that you never existed.

sulong

i have a butterfly and i'm finally it letting go

it wasn't meant to be with me in the first place

it wasn't meant to lead me astray

i have something to finish, and i have got to go

i need to live my life as God wanted me to

i need to look ahead, forgive and start all over again..

this is going to be hard, but i'm ready to lift my foot for my first brave steps...

i just want to escape this part...

it freakin' hurts...
how i wish i can just run away...
i hat waking up around 3am, trying to sleep and
fighting all the thoughts...
it was one thing i thought was worth doing,,
how stupid of me to think, even for just a second,
to throw everything that really matters to me....

feeling lost...

UNDO

i focused on the score but i cud never win, trying to ignore a life of hiding my sin, to label me, a HYPOCRITE will be, only scartching the surface of who i known to be...

turn me around pick me up,
undo what i've become,
bring me back to the place
of forgiveness and grace..

i need you,

lead my hand,
i cant do this myself,
You're the only one
who can undo







what I've become...